Medication

I smothered myself
Poured water on the coals
To stabilize the waves
I’m drifting through
 
The sky is clearing
But I miss the storms
The churned up sea bed
And the broken coasts
 
I want to capsize
But I can’t sink
My mind is bloated
With too many thoughts
 
You call from rocks
A lovely siren
But will you harbor
My broken body
If I crash
Against your shore?