My Little Shadow

Falling victim again
To my escapist tendencies
On the darkest day of the year
As the rain spills loose from faulty gutters

She sleeps
Hammers echo around her oasis
She dreams
Of someone strong and happy

The pressure to be her demigod
Increases my doubt
The task is unending
The price is myself

Eventually she will see me as human
As I came to understand
After years of thrashing and anger
Now only to start the cycle again.